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July 10th, 2012
12:58 am

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The Worlds Meet
I'm posting this here as I know most people will never read it, but it's still a good way for me to get it out. It's been quite a while since the last time I posted. A lot of things have changed since then, some for better, some for worse. I'm trying to stay positive for not just my own sake anymore - I have someone looking up to me.

I've always been a good listener willing to lend an ear when friends need someone to talk to, but I've noticed that I'm starting to get drained from it... Some friends come to me and all they talk about is everything bad that is going on in there life, and what do I do? I get depressed because of it. I let it envelop me and control my emotions and motiviation for the day until I forget about it again. I want to help, but as a friend told me recently, sometimes you just can't help everyone - it's no good worrying about it or it'll cause ulcers.... I don't want ulcers.

My love life has been really weird, but I'm happy where I am now. Jasper and I broke up about earlier October last year, and it really hit me hard - harder than I've ever been hit before from a breakup. For some reason, I didn't want to lose our connection we had like I'd done to James, Alex, and Will.... I let those friendships fall, and I know they will probably never forgive me. I still talk to James and Will occassionally, but I can see how their attitude towards me changed... Like I'm just a bother sometimes. I didn't want that to happen between Jasper and I. So for months, I'd act like my heart wasn't in pieces around me as I continued to talk to him as a friend. But about 3 weeks ago, I just couldn't hide it anymore and told him how I still felt about him.... and what happened next surprised me. I made my peace in the middle of the afternoon and boarded my flight that evening to go to AC, where we first met and where we spent some really important moments together. When I got off the flight and my phone regained signal at 11:45pm that wednesday night, everything I had been hoping and praying for was coming true, and I got to find out what Jasper still felt himself. We patched up our relationship and became one again - My Marty to his Taye (The Circles comic I gave him for his birthday still meant a big deal to him - we both really connected with those characters). It put a swing in my step and gave me the wholeness I had been looking for for a long time. Even though we're a thousand miles apart, he's still here with me everyday. I closed my eyes last night listening to a song I had only heard a few hours before, and I drifted into the air and met up with him in the sky, the stars twinkling around us like camera flashes. I was whole.

Some friendships have come and gone since then. I still keep in contact with some friends, and I have no ill feelings towards others, even if I don't see them as much as I used to.... Maybe at Megaplex will I get to.

My living situtation is difficult sometimes - I get the feeling a lot that I'm not doing enough around the house. I try to make up for it, but I still get that feeling.I try to go above and beyond sometimes but tend to fail more often than not. At least I keep paying though...

I still get scared a lot thinking about the future, but I know that there will be people who care about me with me along the way, so I can keep on going. I wish I was a reliable friend to the ones I care about too. I know that I don't mean as much to some people I call friends as they mean to me, and I should be fine with that, I guess. I still like doing things for them if I can - even if I don't fit in with their group or am just not as important as others are to them.

I'm just rambling now. I should go to bed. At least I got some stuff out.

-Blitz

Current Music: The Worlds Meet - Zed

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December 28th, 2011
07:20 pm

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Artwork Needed for Megaplex 2012 - Turn Back the Gears!
Megaplex 2012 - Turn Back the Gears

https://my.megaplexcon.org/

is looking for arts!

Are you a steampunk artist? Do you dream of cogs and gears and blueprints? Do you love working in copper and antique art styles? Megaplex is looking for any kind of steampunk art you have the rights to and would be willing to showcase in the Megaplex 2012 conbook, posters, and website art! If you would like to submit furry, steampunk, or general artwork to Megaplex for use within the conbook (which all attendees are able to obtain!) or on posters (which we will decorate the halls with - think about it - you submit art, we print it out in a large poster format, and then you can get it off the wall at the end of the con come closing time! Win Win!) or even on the website (which will be available to anybody)!

If you're interested, send a message or even send the artwork in question to
mp-art@megaplexcon.org. And try to make it to Megaplex 2012: Turn Back the Gears down in sunny Orlando, FL on July 27-29th, 2012!

See ya there!

-Blitz Kangaroo

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November 26th, 2010
08:31 pm

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So....
It's been quite a while since I last posted. Yesterday was thanksgiving. Totally kicked the crap out of the worst thanksgiving I had ever had the year before. Yesterday was one of the most enjoyable days I've had. I got to make my Mom's homemade rice crispy treats and some of my own recipe of homemade cornbread. Brought the both over to KP's for dinner, and only left with a few squares of cornbread. I got to talk for over an hour with my otter as I drove to KP's while he was driving to his parents. I miss him so horribly, and I feel bad for not being able to spend physical time and intimacy with him. I owe it to him.

Gotta start on christmas cards tonight. I've only got like 2 committed cards overall. If you want a christmas card from me, let me know before midnight on sunday! They come with something special in them. =3

All the christmas stuff is up in the house, and Bandit helped me get it all done. I still have a feeling Yappy's not gonna like it. Honestly, I've been feeling as if I've been getting on his nerves a lot recently and I wish I knew of some way to make it up to him. Anyway I can....

Gotta get started on christmas presents soon. Lot a lot of things to do.

-Blitz Roo

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September 27th, 2010
10:38 pm

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Furloween!
*wiggles his feetpaws*


Go to http://www.furhold.org/furloween/ for more information! =3

-Blitz

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May 8th, 2010
01:36 am

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Sicktacular
Being sick is serious business. It's like people want to avoid you. Oh well.

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April 22nd, 2010
01:10 am

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Current Mood: Chewy?
*). Life is continuing on. I enjoy living where I am, and am extremely gracious of Yappy for letting me live here. I love Bandit to death and look forward to coming home everyday.

*). Work has been picking up horrendously in the past 2 weeks. Only since the airtraffic ban over Europe did things slow down a bit for me to be able to catch up at work. And even still, more and more things continue to pile up and add the unneeded stress accompanying it.

*). Still single, and I honestly don't care anymore. This love crap is just not fucking worth it. I honestly don't feel as if I'm really cut out for anyone.

*). Still do not have a suit. Am expecting either a suit or my money back come mid may. The maker already knows. I really just want a suit for AC this year. I was supposed to have one last year, and then it fell through, and then it fell through again for Furloween, and then Halloween.... and then Christmas.... and then my birthday.... I just want to suit....

*). Lost a few friends. Honestly, if they don't want to talk to me anymore over trivial shit, then their friendship is just not worth it anymore. I have the few friends I can count on to help me when I need them, and that means more to me than any so called "friends" who just want it for the association and possible free stuff.

*). I've been having horrible sleeping problems lately. I hurt when I wake up in the morning, and have been extremely tired even in the morning. Gonna go see a doctor to figure out what to do.

*). Money is tight right now, but I really want to try and do something for my friends. Maybe a dinner one night or something. I just want the few I trust to know how much they mean to me.

*). Am considering reorganizing my room in the coming days or so. Gonna hang out with Kazer this weekend too, so it should be fun. Maybe he'll help me out on some GH3 achievements.

*). Out of the 12 life achievements for 2010, I've completed 2, which is actually better than last year. I didn't get any last year until July. Here's hoping I get at least 8 or 9 of them this year, compared to the 4 from last year.

*). For me, typing this up makes me think a little lighter tonight. Bullet points work as a much better format for me. Comments are screened if you want to comment.

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April 4th, 2010
12:20 am

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Song Project
So, when I started the year, I decided upon myself that I would try and see how long it would take me to listen to every single song I have on my computer at work, excluding Christmas music. Here's basically a short sample of the songs I like. =3 Here are the results:

NOTE: Songs are sorted first by artist, then by album name, then by song. All songs were played during an 8 hour day in order with no stopping except for lunch.

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What I learned: I have way too much Jimmy Buffett :(

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April 3rd, 2010
10:32 pm

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Been there done that messed around, I'm having fun don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet.
I won't let you in again, The messages I've tried to send,
My information's just not going in.
Burning bridges shore to shore, I'll break away from something more
I'm not too much to love until it's cheap.
Been there done that messed around, I'm having fun - don't put me down,
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet.

This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

I won't let you turn around and tell me now I'm much too proud,
To walk away from something when it's dead.
Do, do, do, your dirty words, Come out to play when you are heard
There's certain things that should be left unsaid.
Tick tick tick tick on the watch and life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out.
I won't let you turn around and tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt.

This time baby I'll be bulletproof.
This time baby I'll be bulletproof.

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March 31st, 2010
12:48 am

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How well do you know me?
I doubt anyone actually knows me. If you get them all right, you win something. First 5 winners win. All comments are screened.

1). Alair the Roocoon is in a band called BARKN. Who are the other 4 members?

A). Blitz, Raggy, Kyle, & Neil
B). Blitz, Red, Keith, & Nate
C). Blitz, Raika, Kore, & Nadia
D). Blitz, Rory, Kayley, & North

2). Who's my favorite Final Fantasy Character?

A). Red XIII
B). Edgar
C). Sabin
D). Kimahri

3). What is my favorite Megaman game out of the entire series?

A). Megaman 3
B). Megaman 4
C). Megaman 5
D). Megaman 10

4). What are my 3 main weaknesses to get me to do anything?

A). Footpaws, Nipples, & Massages
B). Footpaws, Neckrubs, & Food
C). Footpaws, Nipples, & Food
D). Footpaws, Neckrubs, & Massages

5). How many relationships (lasting longer than 2 weeks) have I been in in my life?

A). 3
B). 4
C). 5
D). 6

6). What was my previous fursona?

A). Wolftaur
B). Tigerfox
C). Beardog
D). Tigerwolf

7). What is the only foreign country I have ever visited, and why did I go?

A). Russia, Free trip
B). Canada, Olympics
C). Mexico, Vacation
D). Japan, Pokemon

8). What part is my weakest link in Rock Band (which of the 4 parts do I suck the most at)?

A). Drums
B). Vocals
C). Bass
D). Guitar

9). Who is my favorite Ninja Turtle?

A). Raphael
B). Michaelangelo
C). Donatello
D). Leonardo

10). When I get a Murrsuit, what species should it be? (everyone gets this one right regardless)

A). Your choice.

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March 14th, 2010
12:20 am

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Saturday, March 13th, 2010
Today was a horribly shitty day. The only good thing to come out of it was free parking at Megacon. That was it. I ended up spending the con with my little brother, but we got there late and spent an hour on the 528 trying to get off... Then parking 30 minutes away from the convention center didn't help either.

But what really set the day off bad was when I went to go pick up my ticket, they had no record of it being there, and the women behind the counter offered me no way in assistance of being able to find out why it wasn't there. She said that since I didn't have my stub on me, she couldn't do anything. Well luckily, we knew where we bought the ticket, and when one of the owners of the comic book store came out of the convention center and personally found my information, I was finally able to get inside. Yet, the amount of people inside the convention center really made me feel horribly angry and moody for the rest of the time there. I wasn't able to find anything at all that I was looking for in the Con, and so as we were about to leave around 3pm, I decided I didn't want to leave empty handed, so I went and found this one megaman thing I did see and bought it.

After that, I had to go to work, and my entire body was horribly sore and painful from all the walking and the food poisoning I had on thursday. I just want to collapse, but I can't yet...

I want my fursuit... I want it so bad now...

I wanna reveal my feelings to someone, and yet I'm horribly afraid to lose them if I do.

Shitty day led to shitty night, and I'm losing an hour tonight of sleep....

Yay....
-Blitz

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Current Mood: bitchybitchy

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